There are two words that dropped in my spirit at the beginning of 2018 as I cried out to God desperate not to feel the pain I was in. Til this day, those words have yet to leave me. “Faithful Heart” has become something that I meditate on daily. Usually when something comes to me in this way, it has deep meaning that I must pray and ask God for clarity on. What these two words mean to me personally has a lot of significance on how God has been with me in certain situations, who I am as a person, the deep love I have for romance, and the compassion I have for the people in my life. A Faithful Heart, to me means that I’m going to be consistent to being loyal to the person I marry regardless of how they love me back. It means I’m going to stay consistent in the lives of those who need me the most. That perspective has been a blessing and a curse in many ways because there’s pain associated with it that we can’t always avoid, but I’ve found that my faithfulness has not been in vain. Being faithful, regardless of the way others treat you shows your integrity and integrity is not as common as it should be in these days we are living. God showed me while praying that having a faithful heart is rare, and the reason why it won’t leave me is because there’s a message here. Here it is…
I remember some time ago in 2012 I was fasting and praying for several hours for several days in my closet. I ended up falling asleep. I was awakened by a voice so loud and stern, but so gentle and soft like a whisper and it said “If you love me”. I jumped up like someone was right next to me but nobody was there. I knew I wasn’t crazy. Was that really someone’s audible voice I heard?! I’m standing there looking around my room and the door is closed. Nobody was there! I sat in disbelief and then I remembered the prayer I had been praying for the last several weeks asking God to “Speak to me”. Well, He did and He did it in a way I never thought was possible until that night. I haven’t told many people about this because, let’s be honest, people don’t really believe these supernatural things happen unless it happens to them right?! I’m reluctant to even share this now. I was so humbled and grateful that God would choose me. I mean really, who am I that He would choose to speak to me in such a way?! So the next day, I was lead to read this scripture…
Deuteronomy 7:9 “Therefore know (without any doubt) and understand that the Lord your God, He is God, the FAITHFUL God, who is keeping His covenant and His (steadfast) loving-kindness to a thousand generations with those who love Him and keep His commandments“.
Right then, after reading that scripture I knew exactly what He meant by the words He spoke. He was saying “If you love me, you would keep my commandments, you would be sensitive to my spirit, you would be FAITHFUL”. Sheesh I’m tearing up even now because He chose ME! That changed my whole perspective and heart that night and I never was more willing and humbled to be faithful and live a life pleasing to our Lord and Savior.
If God can remain so faithful to us through our wicked and sinful ways, especially during the times we turned our back to Him and put other things and people in His place, then at least we can take Him a little more seriously and show Him how much we love Him by being faithful. After all, there is a reward for doing good. There is a reward for being faithful and walking upright. The reward is far more pleasing than being unfaithful for temporary pleasures and then suffering the consequences.
I choose to love with all of my heart. I choose to remain faithful regardless of what others do. I choose to be faithful! After all, in the end my reward comes from heaven and that’s a reward I refuse to miss.
I started out going in a whole different direction when I started writing this. That’s not at all what I intended on writing but when the spirit takes over, I flow with it. I hope it blessed you as much as it did me. Until next time…. stay faithful!