It’s been a long time and I’ve missed sharing my heart and the revelations with you. I decided to start writing again because what I just experienced is something I needed to share so here I am and I’m happy to be back. I’m literally in tears right now and in awe of how God speaks to me. When I look back on all that I have been through I’m just so humbly thankful that I am still here. There is no way that I would even be alive today if it wasn’t for the grace, love, and “protection” of my heavenly father. He is so amazing. So let’s dive in shall we?
Many of you know what I’ve had to heal from and it’s been a long journey. I’ve been spring cleaning my home for the last few weeks (on weekends) and one day, as I was cleaning my bathroom, I dropped this handheld mirror that I keep hanging on the bathroom wall. I picked it up and proceeded to put it back on the wall when I stopped and realized that this mirror was cracked pretty bad. At that moment I was looking at my reality. This mirror didn’t just break. It had been broken and hanging on the wall for a long time and I couldn’t see it. I couldn’t see it because I was broken too. The funny thing is, this mirror had fallen so many times and I just kept hanging it back up (catch that). As I stood there looking at the mirror I was hit with this…
The broken can’t see clearly because they are blinded by pain. You can be functional and operate while broken. You can fall many times and get back up and function like nothing happened. You can still see through pieces of a broken mirror but you won’t be able to get a clear and whole view of what you want to see. In the same way, You can still function in every day life but be so broken internally that you aren’t able to see what is broken around you. I wasn’t whole at all. The shattered mirror was a reflection of how my life was. I was still holding it all together but I was still broken just as the mirror was still holding itself together by the frame. The fact that I can now “See” what was in front of me was a sign of healing. I have thrown the mirror away and have since removed many other things that I had been holding on to that I now “see” didn’t belong in my life anymore. I can’t even begin to tell you how much clarity I have and how good I feel. I’m in a good place. A healthy place.
Are you a shattered mirror? What are you holding onto that is broken? We have all been there because it’s inevitable that we have these experiences. I pray that God would heal those broken pieces and give you eyes to “see” your truth. I pray that through His eyes you are able to see what needs to be fixed, removed, and repaired in your life so that you can be free to experience a healthy spiritual, physical, and mental space. Healing feels so good but it takes work and the work is so worth it no matter how long it takes. It took me several years but I was determined as I am with everything. I hope that through my transparency you are able to reflect on your own life and be completely honest with yourself. It’s time to let go of what is broken and unrepairable. It’s also time to time to repair what needs to be fixed. This can be a relationship, your family, your marriage, YOU most of all, or your relationship with God. Let’s do the work!
Only through spending time with God was I able to “See” again. He wants your time. Be Blessed!
A Peculiar Butterfly