As I sit yet again at another cardiologist appointment, I’m a bit exhausted with the process. It’s been 6 months since I began having heart issues. In October 2021 my heart suddenly stopped beating briefly 6-8 times every single minute. After my heart pauses, that next beat was so hard that it took my breath…
I was listening to this song by Chandler Moore called “It’s okay” and I had already been feeling depressed and beat mentally from a long day. The lyrics is exactly what I needed. I was sitting alone in my room, the girls were already asleep and I was thinking about how badly I would like…
Since the anniversary date of Jimmy’s passing which was October 19th, I haven’t really been motivated to do anything. I haven’t been sleeping well and my anxiety is on 1000% along with fatigue and migraines. I work hard and get little rest but usually I’m still amped about working my online stores and my writing…
It’s been three years since Jimmy passed away and I’ve noticed a pattern. It always starts a few days before October hits. Out of nowhere I’m crying uncontrollably and it doesn’t matter where I am or who’s around. I just can’t hold back my tears. I lose focus, motivation, and I am burdened by complete…
My morning routine is the same every day but today was different. I woke up, did my hygiene thing and made my coffee. I always sit on a certain part of my couch that’s closest to the window so I can enjoy my coffee and look out the window taking in the freshness of the…
Time… It’s so precious! Be aware of what and who is occupying your time. You can never get it back. As I sat down to put my focus on something extremely important to me and my purpose this weekend, suddenly everybody and everything came to throw me off course. I received random text messages and…
A tough subject to talk about let alone think about. It hurts and brings a level of disappointment that can last a lifetime. As I reflect often on the times I’ve felt rejected in my life, the affects have been detrimental to most of my relationships and my responses to opportunities that have come and…
It’s no shock that some people heal faster than others. Individuals respond to things differently, but everyone doesn’t have the understanding to consider this important fact when they see other people experiencing the pain of death, trials, and other hardships. My situation was no different. I can’t even begin to tell you the horrible things…
Waking up on a Saturday morning to little hands tugging at my comforter and sweet voices calling me “Mommy” is my normal now. I’m exhausted and mentally drained from working all week and I would like nothing more than to just sleep in without interruption, but I’m the only one here to tend to these…
Peculiar Butterfly 